Well, today was my first day back at work. All of last week I was dreading, yet anticipating my return to the 9 to 5 (well...8 to 4:30). Last week came with lots of ups and downs. Mason was cutting his 5th tooth.. and I tell ya, this was the worst teething experience yet! I could NOT WAIT for that tooth to cut, and it was making me even more impatient about starting my week back to work. But then, because of that thought, I felt bad again.
As the weekend approached though, I was feeling more apprehensive though. As much as I felt I needed the break, it was getting hard to cope with the idea that I would be only seeing my boys for about 3 hours a day, as opposed to the 12 hours I was currently spending.
But as I woke up this morning I felt somewhat relieved and refreshed. I knew that deep down, I needed to break away a bit from this current daily grind. I was getting COMPLETE cabin fever being stuck at home everyday without a car for the last 12 months. That can be very hard to deal with some days.
My first day went really well. My boss had a lovely bouquet of "Welcome Back" flowers that totally made my morning (on top of my much missed Tim Hortons XL coffee :D) But as soon as I sat down at my desk and my boss welcomed me back, I totally broke down in tears :( I thought I was going to be okay, but at that moment all the thoughts of the permanence of this came flooding in. I am officially back to work... and this is a full-time thing.. for now anyway.
The day went by REALLY fast though, and I had a great day. I have yet to encounter any of my customers yet since it is currently the slow season, but it will be fun to talk to them again. Today was mainly.. ahem "fixing" all the design work for the current year.. product guides, etc. That was fun.. right up my alley!
When the work day was done, I absolutely couldn't wait to see my boys. And that will continue to be the best part of my day.
